Shot.

Throw down your cameras! The exclamation point makes me sound far more enthusiastic and/or excited than I could be bothered to even pretend to be right now. I feel completely disillusioned with the idea of photography at the moment. Perhaps my constant documentation of the minutiae of my life is beginning to have a negative effect on my feelings about the art form and probably the quality of my work (or lack of work, as it were). I find myself becoming the people I recently mocked in a photo essay in Washington, D.C. That may be what sparked this feeling in me. While documenting the way people experience our nation's capital, I noticed people simply living through their cameras and not experiencing anything at all. After reviewing the photos and the idea I realized I am one of those people. I do things all the time but almost for the sake of a photo. I enjoy looking back on my daily photos, but I also realize that I am not progressing toward anything. I either need to become much more actively involved in creating a portfolio while gaining experience or I need to stop thinking I can do this and move on to something I can do. I need to shit or get off the pot. It's almost like using my camera for documentation has made it seem less than art to me. I can't be happy with any image I get. I'm too scatterbrained at the moment to even articulate all the things I'm thinking......

I need a new camera. With a good lens.
I need a process.
I can't focus on anything.
I am far too easily distracted.
I don't think I'm good enough for anything.
Everything keeps moving whether I like it or not.
Or not.

dm