Where You Want to Be

I'm starting to get that feeling again that I need to leave.
I've gotta drive away to somewhere I don't know.
Knowledge isn't power when you know it like this.
All I want is warm air.
Windows down.
Music up.
Sing-alongs.
Best friends.
Long nights.
Tall beers.
Skies full of stars.
And minds filled with more.
So let's throw caution to the wind and hope it floats away.
Let's throw the pearls back into the ocean.
The diamonds back into the dirt.
Until it's just us.
Me.
You.
The moon.
Nothing to stop us but us.

.dm.

Alone I can barely light a match...

...but together we can burn this place down. ~fys

How can I learn from my mistakes
When my mistakes are such bad teachers?
Or maybe I’m just a poor student
Passing notes instead of paying attention
What would it be like to live outside this skin?
No easier than I pretend
It comes easy to you, or so you make it seem
That’s how it looks from over here
These words aren’t work
But my days are labor
I can’t be content to live and die
In one single blink of a god’s eye
These clouds pass by the sun
Like moments of motivation in my day
Raining showers of thoughts
Gone before you knew they were here

* * *

Spring weather always makes me nostalgic
I’m just not sure what for
It makes me homesick for a place that never existed
Feeling the cool breeze at 3am is the best
Walking in solitude in the early morning darkness
In shorts and a t-shirt makes me wish I were younger
The warmth at night makes me want the beach
There’s nothing like that atmosphere
Sand covering your feet
Moon hovering over the water
Waves crashing rhythmically
As you walk hand in hand with someone who makes you feel just right
Hoods over your heads and zippers up to your smiles
Bottle caps and best friends
Whiskey breath and dead ends
Hiding in the shadows cast by police lights
Cuz that’s just where we live
Lifeguard chairs are the top of the world
Ice cold ocean feet on the hottest girl
Pre-dawn breezes whisper to our covered ears
They tell us to leave but we’re not going anywhere
Morning gulls, they call and call
Wasting their time, just like us
Sleeping silence from the city
As asphalt feet bring us back to reality
We walk away from that grainy perfection
Knowing we can’t just walk back and have it be the same
We can grin on our pillows tonight, though
Knowing that the songs carried on that wind will stay with us forever.

*dm*

Jersey Drive

I'm lying to my face
but who do I think I'm kidding?
I'm dying in this place
but I deserve all that I'm getting

You're not what I thought you'd be
That's just the way we do
I'd drive across New Jersey and I'd
Cut the state in two

These nights you seem so far from my town
I still feel your lips like they just left my mouth
My mind doesn't wonder 'bout the places they've been
Just searches for your taste all over her skin

I'm lighting up matches
To burn down this mattress
We buried the hatchet
But I'm digging up axes
To cut the ties
And spill the lies
I was hypnotized
Now you can't disguise--

All the things you made me do for you
What I'd bring was nothing new to you
Pull my eyes out to improve the view
And you deserve the things I'll do to you

I'm lying in my face
but I'm the only one I'm kidding
Living life disgraced
but who can keep track of my sinning?

I'm just not who I thought I'd be
That's just the way we do
I'd drive across New Jersey and I'd
Do it just for you

I'd drive across New Jersey and I'd
Say goodbye to blues

I'd drive across New Jersey just to
Cut that state in two again for you.

dm.intherain.

Drifter

My head feels full..
Like I’ve eaten too much information already today
“Stick a pin in it..”
…dreaming nightly of your kiss
walking through days like clenched fists…
Hours alone in strange places
Stacks of books not worth reading
Upside down chairs on desks remind me of childhood
I’m no authority figure
They handed me this position
I need to escape
From this town
From my head
I’ve never felt so trapped
I’ve always been comfortable here
I need to leave so I’ll want to come back
The beaches are calling my name
But when I get there they give me the cold shoulder
Perception is more than how you look at something
It’s how something looks back
So amazed how something inanimate--time--can make me sad
I’ll be gone sooner than you think.

.heart.dm.