I am but one small instrument...

I hurt myself at the concert the other night. My knee. Again. I spent all of yesterday in the hospital for the most part. Just getting x-rays and scans, not because I was seriously injured or anything. The doctor said to stay off it and come back on Monday. So I'm going to New York today. I have things to write about but not now because it's awkward keeping my leg in this position right now. They had me in the CT for so long, lying perfectly still, staring at the holes in the ceiling as I thought about God, fate, karma and what was going to be my summer... can't stop me.

dm

Laundry list of problems.

Demetri Martin is doing stand up but nowhere near New Jersey.
lame.
Las Vegas in a few weeks.
not that excited.
I don't have any food in the house...
I need to go shopping.
I can't wait until the work on the house is done.
I'm a little sunburned from surfing.
I want to go for a bike ride.
I might do that now.
I need to get hummus.
See ya later.

dm

Letting go is love...

I have to be up in a little over five hours to drive Nathan to Brooklyn. I offered to do it but now that I'm still awake so late it feels like an obligation. I'm tired. Why aren't I sleeping? The internet. Updating blogs. That's what happens. I had a long day.. I really need to get some rest. I went kayaking, biking, played home run derby and took a long walk. It's time for bed...

more to come...

dm.

I hope we all feel alright..

I went kayaking with Nathan today. The other day when I went hiking in PA I realized that there is so much that I want to do with my summer and I need to do it now when I can. I have time off with no job right now and I want to use the opportunity to do the things that I really want to. Even if I have to do them by myself, I want to do these things by the end of summer:

-go surfing a few times
-one hike a week
-bike to the shore again
-bike from the shore to Philly (by the end of summer/early fall)
-several day backpack trip
-run an 8k or 10k
-kayak the Maurice River

That's just a basic list of the physical activities I'd like to do this summer. I'm sure there's more that I forgot right now... I also want to:

-finish my portfolio
-enter at least one show or gallery
-learn more on acoustic guitar
-record a few songs (maybe?)
-finish the garage/rec area/exercise area
-finish episode 3/start filming pilot of Don & Chuck

That's another basic list... I also want to read more. I just ordered three new books on amazon that will be coming this week so I need to finish up the book I'm reading so my slate will be clear for the new ones. Let's hope I can follow through with these goals.

Time to go for a bike ride.. it's way too nice to be sitting inside.

dm

Miles away

I woke up to a beautiful breeze, a sunny day... and arguing neighbors.
...and they can't even speak proper English.
Oh, New Jersey, how do I loathe thee? Let me count the ways.
I need to leave.

dm

Redefine despair

I am feeling weird tonight...
I say that a lot so maybe I'm just feeling normal..
Anyway, I have been listening to Anberlin almost exclusively lately.
with some Copeland, Emery and Anthony Green thrown in as well.
I'm listening to them right now.
I want to see them live.. they are playing live now at Cornerstone.
I'm jealous of people there.
Purple Door? ok.
I went for a long hike today.
My legs don't hurt.
They never do.
I walked and listened to nature; the birds and streams.
And I listened to myself... until I couldn't take it anymore.
There was a lot of time to hear myself while hiking alone.
I don't know if I accomplished what I wanted to by getting out by myself...
but I feel like I came up with some good metaphors if nothing else.
Stay tuned.
I always feel like I have so much to say but can't get it out..
For one reason or another.
Some of it is not appropriate for public eyes.
Some not for private eyes..
Hmm.
I realize that I really don't have anything to say now..
.

I'm in constant fear of being cut loose
Attached by the smallest thread and blowing in the wind
Just waiting for a gust of my own hot air to do the job
I imagine our tandem jump
Free of that plane that holds us
But it's just in my mind; anchor to my dreams
Nothing else is keeping me grounded these days
My favorite bone
Out of reach and under wraps
I'll keep you in a frame
But not a picture
A picture of perfection; but what doesn't belong?
I'll cut myself
And then paste somewhere that I fit in
Tracing fingertips to buried treasure
Just more fool's gold
I'll add it to my collection
Bend until you break
Regroup
Repeat.

dm

How can it be....

For some reason, I feel like I had a really good day today. I slept in but when I got up, Devin and I did some work on the house before I went for a run. I set myself a goal for running today and I just kept going until I got to it. It felt good. I just feel good tonight. I'm not going to try to question it too much because it will leave me feeling bad I'm sure. I'm just going to enjoy the nice breeze coming in the windows and go to sleep early so I can get up to go on a hike tomorrow. I have been wanting to get away from here for a while so I'm going up to PA to hike a strenuous trail and have some alone time. I hope it's enjoyable. If I don't post tomorrow.. send someone to the Conestoga Trail south of Lancaster, PA to find me because I've probably become incapacitated with no cell phone service... wish me luck...!

Goodnight

dm

Hold my breath...

5:12am. My summer sleeping schedule--scratch that, my sleeping schedule is strange. The birds start chirping well before light and every so often another bird will chime in and slowly create that early morning cacophony that makes falling asleep at dawn difficult. The sun isn't up yet but the colors are starting to appear in the sky and they are almost as amazing as some of the sunsets I have witnessed/photographed. I was just watching the clouds pass through the sky for a little while before I decided it was time for bed. I prefer watching the sunrise with someone else by my side anyway..

Have you ever fallen asleep while writing in a journal or taking notes in class? You know how your words just start trailing into little lines that run off the page as your hand drops? I just did that with the computer but I held down the "s" key and opened my eyes to find the entry box scrolled far to the right and s's still appearing there. Like this "ssssssssssssssssssssss." I thought it was funny because I've done it so much in my actual pen and paper journals... goodnight.

Dm..

ps.. I had fun at the show tonight. Feeling much better than I did this morning.. or yesterday morning. sleep.