The Lake

Feelings aren't what they used to be.
They've lost muscle mass with age.
They just can't land a punch like they could before.
They're lacking the strength and stamina of the fighter they once were.
Commonplace feels out of place.
These waters run deep,
but when you're sleeping they freeze beneath your feet.
My arms have been around you for all this time.
Holding you (back.)
My mind always forgets to let go.
Memories keep quiet.
Regrets always speak out of turn.

>dm

What doesn't kill you makes you stranger...

I can't really think straight right now.
I feel like I'm drunk but I haven't had any alcohol.
I can feel my mind spinning while I stand still.
It's a ridiculous sensation.
I can't focus on one thought long enough.
It just goes by.
There is no time to make sense of anything.
This is overwhelming.
This isn't poetry, this is a call for help.
Unless anyone reading is a doctor, no use trying.
Crying would be useful now.
I need to get away from these feelings.
I just want to be in another place, a later time when all this has passed.
I want sleep, but I'm wide awake.
Give me a straight jacket.
Or a sport coat, I'll go crazy in style.
It feels like I'm in withdrawal.
Maybe I am.
I need a fix.
Of you.
I need to fix me.
Gotta take out my contacts so I can see things more clearly.
I'll crawl between the pages of a book and hold your place.
I'm waiting at the end of your favorite line.
Hiding out behind punctuation.
You're always my ellipses...

dm.ntd

Keep your receipt

"Nothing is genuine"
And we're not unique.
I think like a shark,
Keep swimming or you'll die.
I want to fall asleep next to you.
I hate being alone
because I'm such bad company.
One hand on your hip bone,
The other in your hair.
It's only me.
That's the problem.

dm